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Counting Backwards

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From the author of Rabbits for Food comes a profound and deeply moving new novel about a middle-aged couple's struggle with the husband’s descent into early onset Lewy Body dementia, shot through with Kirshenbaum’s signature lacerating humor.

“Gutsy, funny, heart-wrenching.”—The New York Times Book Review

It begins with hallucinations. From their living room window, Leo sees a man on stilts, an acting troupe, a pair of swans paddling on the Manhattan streets below. Then he’s unable to perform simple tasks and experiences a host of other erratic disturbances, none of which his doctors can explain. Leo, 53, a research scientist, and Addie, a collage artist, have a loving and happy marriage. They’d planned on many more years of work and travel, dinner with friends, quiet evenings at home with the cat. But as Leo’s periods of lucidity become rarer, those dreams fall away, and Addie finds herself less and less able to cope with an increasingly unbearable present.
Eventually, Leo is diagnosed with early onset dementia in the form of Lewy body disease. Life expectancy ranges from 3 to 20 years. A decidedly uncharacteristic act of violence makes it clear that he cannot live at home. He moves first to an assisted living facility and then to a small apartment with a caretaker, where, over time, he descends into full cognitive decline. Addie’s agony, anger, and guilt result in self-imposed isolation, which mirrors Leo’s diminished life. And so for years, all she can do is watch him die—too soon, and yet not soon enough.
Kirshenbaum captures the pair’s final years, months, and days in short scenes that burn with despair, dark humor, and rage, tracking the brutal destruction of the disease as well as the moments of love and beauty that still exist for them.
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    • Library Journal

      Starred review from February 1, 2025

      In Kirshenbaum's (An Almost Perfect Moment) latest, Leo is a professor at a prestigious university; his wife, Addie, is a collage artist. Their life, as a middle-aged, childless-by-choice couple in New York City, is fulfilling and peaceful, until Leo starts experiencing hallucinations. They start off as halos around streetlights and graduate to Gandhi stirring a pot of lentils. Leo consults ophthalmologists, neurologists, and other specialists, but none can pinpoint the cause of the visions. His symptoms and behavior worsen, until he finally gets a diagnosis of early-onset Lewy body dementia. When Leo stabs his nephew during a family visit, Addie must find a care home for Leo. This starts a long process of Addie struggling to find care for Leo and stay financially afloat while mourning a husband who is still physically present. In Kirshenbaum's raw novel about loss, caretaking, and love, biting humor is used to relate searing observations on marriage, art, friendship, and disease. VERDICT Kirshenbaum invites readers to consider who they are without their memories and how we make decisions about prolonging life. An important novel about dementia, highly recommended for all libraries.--Lynnanne Pearson

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    • Booklist

      February 1, 2025
      It starts with hallucinations. Then Leo's behavior veers towards the bizarre. He's 53, a professor and medical researcher; his wife, Addie, is a collage artist. Dedicated to each other and their work, they've lived happily as New Yorkers without children. Now Leo is derailed by Lewy body dementia. He can't work and requires constant care. As difficulties ludicrous and frightening escalate, Addie places him in a shockingly expensive facility. Things go awry. A second attempt leads Addie to Larissa, a multitalented, wholly caring aide. Though facing financial calamity, Addie won't deny Leo and Larissa anything, sacrificing her own needs, pushing through anxiety and sorrow to keep creating. A character of exceptional strength, contrariness, and wit, Addie narrates in pithy, stinging, frontline dispatches recounting the mysteries, mayhem, humor, heartbreak, and intermittent radiance of lives shadowed by dementia. Kirshenbaum (Rabbits for Food, 2019) conveys Addie's incisive and poignant thoughts about perception, time, and change, her loneliness and determination, with breathtaking precision and restraint. The literary equivalent of a collage electric with unexpected juxtapositions, Counting Backwards is a novel of exquisite sensitivity and artistry.

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    • Publisher's Weekly

      Starred review from January 20, 2025
      Kirshenbaum (Rabbits for Food) offers a deeply moving and playfully arch narrative of an artist dealing with her husband’s mental and physical decline. A typical “internal weather report” for Addie, a middle-aged New Yorker, is “overcast with anxiety.” Her husband, Leo, who runs a university medical research lab, begins showing signs of dementia in his early 50s. Addie tries to meet his changes with humor, as when he hallucinates Mahatma Gandhi outside their window (“Is he wearing anything more than a dhoti?” she says, adding, “You might want to bring him a coat”). At a low point, she calls a suicide hotline. She finds occasional relief by going out for drinks with a suave man named Z, whose departure for Europe angers her, and she mocks Z for calling Europe “the continent.” After Leo is diagnosed with Lewy body dementia, Kirshenbaum sardonically outlines the disease’s seven stages, showing how Addie’s reaction to the news mirrors the various stages of grief, beginning with denial. The bulk of the story is delivered in Addie’s crisp second-person narration and her interstitial journal entries, in which she remarks on Leo’s transformation (“Asks if I want to go to Times Sq. to watch the ball drop* / *Stark raving mad question”). Kirshenbaum puts her lively wit to good use, tempering the sadness of her drawn-out depiction of Leo’s deterioration and Addie’s attempts to wrap her head around the ultimately lonely nature of existence. It’s a tour de force. Agent: Joy Harris, Joy Harris Literary.

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